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From September 15th – October 22nd of 2017 a fantastic play is show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, show, showing at the Pillsbury Theatre in Minneapolis. You should go. [what would it be like to do the same show 26 times in 5 weeks? whoa!]

Self-indulgence seemed to be the theme here.

It was written by Janas Hassen Khemiri and was perhaps the most creepy/dark/effective/funny/great/hedonistic/individual portrayal of money, greed, and desire I have ever witnessed. The space at the theatre was simple, and the actors – often embodying various attitudes or inner urges experienced by the actual “scripted”/”real” characters – flowed through and beyond the set with humor and ease. One single actor might represent three neighborhood goofballs over the span of 2 minutes – at another moment, 2 actors might represent 1 single goofball’s inner dialogue. Very cool work & had me scribbling on my mini-paper-pad thing excessively throughout the show.

DESIRE. This goal-oriented intoxicating desire reminded me for the entire 1 hour and 45 minutes of the nucleus accumbens and VTA. The performance felt like a clear demonstration of our inner desires for wealth and class and fancy items – walk in closets, perfume, champagne – and thus connoted the reward systems we all have in common. Of course those reward systems are best characterized as biological, as they operate on entirely passive, predictable, and commonly inherited forces. Much of the melancholy came from divisive attitudes and circumstances, and the passing of judgment. Greedy folks blaming other greedy folks for being greedy.

Are we all screwed? Maybe not. The consistency of this self-indulgence and other-blaming is what offered at least some comedic redemption for each character. If we’re all united in our humanity by greed it perhaps opens up the conversation about what to do about it. [The program offers several discussion questions, one of which is Do you identify with any of the characters? I identified with all of them, down to the yucky details.]

So what’s with greed? What’s with money? Thanks to the theatre & the playwright for getting at least my brain and a few others to keep wondering. Capitalism is our mutual problem as a society (especially in America), and maybe to be unified and identified as automata who are equally enticed by pleasure is the first step towards rewiring our nature.



The Barbara Schneider Foundation – a brief summary

Most of the world, connected tightly by digital devices, fiber-optics, and touchscreens, is well aware that we have a problem with use of force by law enforcement. In fact it is not uncommon for the average person in the United States to be acquainted with someone who has been the victim of brutal and outdated forms of police training and often times also to have been a victim themselves. This is especially true for people of color, persons with brain diseases, individuals who do not conform to gender-binary norms – and if you’re several or all of these things, life in America is feudal. And it’s all over the news – every day there are videos of more shootings, more police officers being released despite having blood on their hands. You know it sucks. Everyone knows it sucks – not least of all the police themselves.

But despite the huge public awareness of the problem, there is very little discussion or awareness of possible solutions. Why is that? Certainly, for many people, the mistake is to assume that there are no solutions to the use of force problem or to police brutality. This is actually quite understandable. Why should the average citizen, who is pretty much voiceless and without any influence over the police, be expected to understand how to stop police-related killings?  In our western world the preference of media entities and of lawmakers is to stagnate any real progress in the realm of public safety or social equality, and subsequently tragedies continue to occur and the police continue to have suboptimal training. The police themselves (with the exception of some groups) have, without adequate education or funding or support, been absolutely unable to be the nation’s emergency psychiatrists, even though they are generally expected to be. But thanks to the federal and state governments there is no money or space for individuals with sickness, and the cycle of death and pain continues. The natural tendency of individuals at the level of the community, then, is to be upset – the media can make a lot more money by perpetuating and dramatizing that problem rather than helping to solve it. Those who remain unaware that this is a systemic issue of a lack of training continue to be upset with one another, and upset at the police, when disaster strikes again and again. It makes sense, even though it’s terrible. So it’s not surprising that the problem persists overall.

But there are solutions. Despite the fact that your local and state government have absolutely no time, money, or compassion for the individuals suffering at its own hand from mental illness, drug abuse, or personal crisis, there are a handful of individuals within that system who have helped to make some progress. And above and beyond that there are truly miraculous grassroots efforts to improve circumstances for individuals in crisis who have to face off with police – these are tiny groups of advanced trainers who teach law enforcement officials and police how to better handle these situations peacefully. Larger still is the contribution of individuals – doctors, nurses, social workers, advocates, community organizers, families, friends, clergy, artists – the burden continues to remain on medically unskilled persons to bear the emotional weight of their troubled loved ones. Out of these massive support networks, and the associated tragedies, a number of groups have emerged to offer the world’s most advanced training in crisis intervention. Various survivors of police encounters, police trainers and officers themselves, and other healthcare, emergency medicine, and psychiatric experts are the meat and bones of these entities, who are few in number but great in power. With great pleasure I am describing to you groups like Minnesota’s own Barbara Schneider Foundation – a nonprofit that focuses on the CIT model of crisis intervention.

I have spent some time speaking, teaching, and consulting with this group in particular about my own experiences. This past January I also wrote their director a brief proposal  that articulated my understanding of the work BSF is accomplishing and my small vision for how it might be improved. In summary it is my opinion from experience and academic training that the brain sciences (and particularly the areas of affective neuroscience, developmental neuroscience, and psychiatry) will in coming years offer a revolutionary and unparalleled set of solutions and strategies for communities and nations to address the issues of brain disease, extreme personal crises, and the psychiatric stability of the public. The World Health Organization is of the opinion that by 2030, depression will be the leading cause of disability on earth. I would rather not cite statistics on how many persons with mental illness are killed by police every year – just go read about it yourself. The brain is the source of these mysterious issues, and it is through an accumulated world history of powerful, personal, and sometimes tragic anecdotes, combined with new and nearly mystical insights into our own existence through the study of the nervous system, that will begin to alleviate the suffering of so many. This must start with basic empirical research at the level of how mental health crises emerge in the brain, in the moment, and in the world – hence, ‘3 levels of the mental health crisis.’

enjoy. this is a very rough draft; judge accordingly.



Worshipping Politics

Politics. At 23 years old I don’t even know what that refers to…here are my thoughts on what the word denotes.

It has been my experience since birth that human beings participate in various behaviors – stuff like talking, assembling, organizing, making group decisions, and establishing power over one another. In the United States, these behaviors may be seen to fit into a kind of system. The “politics” to which I am referring in this tiny little note, then, is perhaps a system of behaviors related to modern democratic structures: delegation of absolute power to a small minority, the frequent trespasses and problems in the ruling minority,  municipal/state/federal elections of the ruling class, consumption of political material from the mainstream media by the voting class, etc. Whether or not these are actual behaviors, or an actual system, is TBD later — and to satisfy the biologically-oriented, the specific bodily processes that may be involved in political behavior will be enumerated later as well. But the biology of voting behavior is quite obviously a dead end — Mostly, I want to voice an uncanny feeling that strikes me whenever over-zealous constituents scream at the televised debates. I want to talk briefly about the creepiest part of politics by far.

I am talking about the fervent participation in politics. This is the nightly argument over candidates and policy for the duration of a 24-month election season. This is the individual who has a preference in “elected official.” This is the “I Voted” sticker, the quotation of politicians during significant events or memorials, the act of campaigning and canvassing, and the overwhelming acceptance of this system on the part of the individual. Some people choose to “not see politics” – and some see political forces, and the influence of political forces, at play beyond the specific “political behaviors” aforementioned.These are the individuals who might explain to you that federal government controls everything, and subsequently stress to you the importance of being very involved in the voting process. The following is an observation of mine about those faithful to the modern political infrastructure: as the perceived size, influence, and permanence of the US Government increases so does the perceived need to participate. Conversely, in areas of the United States where Government is smaller or less involved it seems that individuals feel less obligated to adhere to that system. Furthermore, it seems clear that in 2016 the majority of white Americans have no expectation that the Gov’t will go anywhere, change significantly, or disappear.

Is this strange? In 2016 it might be considered common sense that American citizens are involved in the political process. It might be considered common sense that the Government is there to make the rules, and no one would reasonably deny that the modern Political Machine does have tremendous power over the personal lives of most people. But the idea that ALL people participate in politics in one way or another, or that all humans bounded by the geographical regions of the United States have fair political standing or influence, is wrong. It is quite obviously the case that the current circumstance of politics are not a de facto state of being, and that not all individual humans personally affected by it are willing participants. So what are we working with? What is a system that claims absolute authority, ownership, and control of its parts? What is a system that is governed by theocrats, controlled by scripture, and judged by Puritan Ministers? It’s a religion. Our infrastructure, our laws, our legislative bodies, our voting system, and our law enforcement – and the faithful, unquestioning constituents therein — certainly comprise a kind of Church.

Each and every person in the United States, and many people outside of it, are locked in this Church. Being sequestered in this way means simply that decisions, living circumstances, and interactions, laws, social expectations, and most aspects of human life are at least somewhat affected the pews, the altar, and the available resources. This does not mean to imply that the Church has complete authority – Did I not just say in the previous paragraph that there are many people, and behaviors, that have absolutely no intention to participate? All I mean to suggest is that in the same way a Church might limit your range of motion, how much light you are exposed to, what type of music you hear, what you read, who you speak to, and how many experiences you might have, so too our political system inhibits and specifies what experiences you are allowed to have.

The Red vs Blue, conservative vs liberal, Bernie vs Hilary vs Trump vs Carson game is simply a war of faith systems. The most unfortunate repercussion of this is the incredibly narrow range of opinion between people. A quick and honest glance at the state of politics suggests to anyone with a clear head that all of our extremely lively, passionate, and “varied” opinions fall into a pathetically narrow spectrum – within the confines of the Church. The greatest scheme of all time may be this consistent ability of leaders & aristocrats to limit or channel the thinking of the less able. And even though the citizens of the United States (especially minorities) are brutalized by an ancient way of decision making, I would guess most are under the impression that the political machine is advanced and effective. But we are, in the context of any society of the future, perhaps more stone-aged than we would like to admit. Why are our standards for ethical political behavior so low? Why is it that after being trapped in the Church, people begin to believe the Church is the world?

Maybe it’s our toys. The glittering and gleaming advance of technology, particularly electronics, has given most wide-eyed believers the impression that we are leaps and bounds ahead of our biological cousins. Even within the scientific community there are those who firmly segregate humans from the rest of the animal kingdom on account of our spoken and written language abilities. Humans are so enthralled with the advent of the iPhone that most of them don’t seem to notice that homelessness, hunger, violence, war, and corruption aren’t going anywhere. We are even in a position where our one and only planet is being damaged on account of the rules of the Church. Off in the future our great-great-great grandchildren, if they get a chance to inherit this planet,are certainly looking back on our stone-aged morals, our brutish criminalization of behavior, expression, self, and race with disgust. Our most idealized version of fair rule and control is Democracy, which can be better described as “Majority rules.” There are other ways of doing things.

With the premise held in mind that our society’s political system is existent but not necessary, nor an expression of any natural or native human state, it becomes abundantly clear that this system is open for criticism. It’s a religion, and not merely in the theocratic sense. Even if Church and State (or, Church and Church) were separated we would still be living in a religious system. The Christian flavor of our country may eventually be replaced with better tastes, but the bureaucracy itself is also a faith system.

Are not polling booths like pews? Political rallies like sermons? Leaders, idols? etc etc etc

(It doesn’t help that half of the individuals in office wipe their butts and live their lives with scripture, either)

I’m done thinking about this. Hopefully at least some of this will make sense tomorrow.